It's true. Everybody even somebody like me with my problems and past deserves happiness. Have I wronged people yes. Have I done horrible things to myself, my body, and my loved ones oh you don't know the half of it. But when I got onto that plane and landed in Illinois I left that all behind. I left those awful feelings and a past in NY and began in a new state with a new beginning and new outlet on life.
We all have problems, we're human beings for Christ sakes we can't expect utter perfection from everybody. I know I wish I could've changed some of the things I've done but I have finally be able to let go of them because it just dragged me down and consumed me causing the serve depression I had.
For so long I thought I deserved a man that I mentioned in many journals before due to my history and me not loving/respecting myself. Now I don't need to hang onto men and people like that.
I found something beautiful, something amazing. Now those people, men, and past don't matter, I have something so special and amazing I won't let those petty things consume me.
I have gained more than a beautiful love, I have gained love for myself, my body, and embraced myself, even my flaws.
And no man, friend, or past could take that away from me.